Last year I started 2016 with a word. Hope. 2016 was my year of hope after our devastating loss in 2015, I wanted 2016 and our new year to start off on the right foot. The word hope represented so much. The hope for a great year for my family, my blog and most of all for our last shot at having another baby. January started off exactly like that when I found out I was indeed pregnant again. It was actually the hardest thing not to announce it right away but I just had to be 100% sure this time because I didn’t think I could write another post announcing yet another loss. I kept it to myself until I had my 12 week ultrasound and saw our beautiful little bean and that glorious heart beat.
Fast forward to the summer and it had so many things going on for us. My 12-year-old had to have pretty major surgery after finding a massive cyst the size of cantaloupe on her ovary. I am thankful that I trusted my instincts and had them check her out. Please always go with your instincts because I find 98% of the time they are right. This is one piece of advice I will give any parent, if you think there is something wrong and you just feel like you need to have someone else check it out, do it. The best thing that can happen is that it is nothing and you move on but the other could mean finding something before it’s too late. My daughter ended up just having a cyst but it could have been something much worse.
The end of summer brought even more chaos for us in the sense that I wasn’t ready for our rainbow to come yet. I even ignored contractions and put them off to being Braxton hicks for 2 days. In the end, our littlest rainbow was born 5 weeks early and healthy as a horse. We had a very short NICU stay because of low sugar but otherwise he was a very happy, healthy 35 weeker. You wouldn’t even be able to tell this little one was ever premature because at 4 months old he is a whopping 18 pounds and a chubby, bubbly bundle of happy baby.
My oldest son has been dealing with big stuff this year and I will hopefully be able to discuss this more next year but that is up to him as it’s his story and not mine and I wouldn’t want to put anything out there that he doesn’t want out there. Let’s just say it’s been one hell of a year with him and I am hoping that 2017 will be easier for him.
My 8-year-old is also struggling with something as well and so far we are headed in the right direction and can only hope that 2017 will get easier for him too.
My husband, who thankfully has been able to be home with us taking parental leave from work, found out that his warehouse job will be gone as of January 14th so I am glad that he decided to take his parental leave as it worked out in our favour and will give him some time to look for another job before he would have to go back.
And of course me. I was really hopeful that the blog would be so much this year and although it did bring many things, it hasn’t become what I know it is capable of being. In January, I am planning a redesign. A new theme, a new direction and a new logo. This blog has been about my life for the past 3 years and now it needs to reflect me more. I want a cleaner, easier to read theme and a logo that represents all of us. Not just me but my entire family. I am feeling a bit like packing it in but I don’t really want to because I love my blog and my readers that much. It has been a big part of us for the past 3 years and even if it never becomes what I hope it could be, it is mine. So this new year is about the word I have chosen for 2017 more than ever.
So this year, I am choosing a word that I hope we can all live with for 2017. One that I think can be achieved for us, my word for 2017 is perseverance. I will not give up on the blog, on the things going on in our life and we will persevere and tackle 2017 full on and be stronger and better for it. When we feel like giving up, we will remember why we started in the first place.
Lastly, I want to thank all of you for coming and reading and sticking with my from the beginning. I love each and every one of you and I hope to see more of you in 2017!
Happy New Year! Here’s to the best 2017 for all of us!