So we are more than halfway through our pregnancy and it is starting to become real. It has been very real for me from that very first ultrasound, but I find that it takes my husband a little longer to really realize we are having a baby. Although I have an anterior placenta (which sucks a lot), I am starting to feel our little one moving and kicking more now. It is probably the one thing that I love the most about being pregnant and the one thing I will miss when it’s gone. I realize that we have to start making decisions about names.
That is a hard pill to swallow for me mostly because I love being pregnant, I love being able to create a new life and finally realizing that this is our last and I will never do it again is a hard reality. I am so thankful to have been given the chance to have the children I have and I will never take that for granted but it’s hard when you find yourself in a completely new life stage. The next thing for me is waiting for menopause and that stage of my life as well as watching my beautiful children grow and become adults. I can’t wait to see what they become and how their lives evolve.
I think after much discussion and the fact the our youngest has decided what to call his little brother to be, we have decided on a name. I am not going to announce it until he comes but at least he will have a name which I was worried we wouldn’t have by the time he came, however choosing his middle name is proving difficult.
I can’t believe that in about 16-18 weeks, we will be welcoming our rainbow baby, the completion of our family. I will have four boys. I think I will need to move to a farm with cows, chickens and vegetables to feed them by the time they are teenagers. I will always only have one girl who I think is pretty darn special and it makes me happy to have her especially after the struggle to conceive her. I love my life, my family and I can’t wait to meet this little bundle of joy!