Originally I never imagined having any less than 6 kids when I became a mom, I was 8 and had no idea, but still being a mom was the job I wanted. I loved the idea of being someone else’s mom and even at the young age of 8, I knew that I wanted that to be a part of my future.
When I got married and struggled to even have the first one, disappointment, despair and depression were my best friends. Everyone around me was pregnant or having a baby and it was eluding me. I wrote about that journey here. After 18 long months, I was pregnant and 9 months later my beautiful baby girl was born. Fast forward 11 years and 3 more kids and I am starting the journey again.
A few months after my youngest was born, I wrote about the fact that we had decided that we were done having children. Although little man is our only child together, my husband was happy to just have the one together as we also have my 3 from my first marriage. I even had an IUD placed in December as it was the easiest way to both take care of not having any more children and regulating my awful time of the month. The fact that my husband has an aversion to talking about a vasectomy had no bearing on it at all (ha ha).
Things have changed since then. I realized that although I have 4 children, little man is almost like having an only child. He is 18 months and his siblings are 11, 8 and 6. They don’t really play together all that much as the age difference is quite big and since my older 3 also visit their dad every weekend, he is alone at this time too. It took almost 6 months of convincing my husband that we need to have one more, and after a month-long discussion about the pros and cons and whether we were ready for another, we made the decision that we are going for number 5. Most people look at me like I am crazy but to having a large family is so important. I need to know that when I am gone, they will have each other.
I had my IUD removed in October and have been trying ever since with no luck so far. So I am hopeful to give our journey the kickstart it needs with the help of First Response. The wonderful rep for First Response sent me some products to test out and I will be using them and documenting my journey. I will be using their ovulation predictor kits and hopefully with any luck, subsequent pregnancy tests as well. Although I only had issues having my first baby, my age and the fact that I had an IUD for almost a year, will make this journey take a little longer, but it’s nice to have a product to help us along.
I hope you will all follow along our journey to baby number 5 and I am hopeful that we will be pregnant by the end of the year and that I will be writing about my pregnancy and the ups and downs of being pregnant.